At long last, the holiday rush is over. Literally, it was a rush for me, everything I did was in a rush, wrapping presents due in the morning, emailing ecards, sending messages to my friends in my messenger list. But finally it was over and done with. Everything I needed to do was done just in time before Christmas eve kicked in.
Anyway, while it was Christmas eve in the Philippines , it was December 23rd here in the States. Since it was just a day before Christmas eve, there was nothing much to do so we just watched TV. Me and my husband watched an orchestra band playing lots of christmas carols. It was fun to watch and listen to their lively music but it somehow made me blue . I turned to look at my husband, noticed he looked sad too so I joked, said ” Uh, oh, Daddy looks sad now ” , went over to him to give him a hug but as I did I found myself crying. I didn’t realize I needed the hug much more than my husband did. I just lost it you know, I was teasing him but didn’t admit it that I was the one lonely deep inside. Husband’s been here for eight years already and I’ve been here for only a year and a half so it was much more sad for me. I know that my family in the Philippines are all together, preparing for a noche buena and we’re here just the three of us. It was too lonely and it just got me crying.
I used to look forward to Christmasses, it’s actually my favorite time of the year but now that I’m here far far away from my family in the Philippines, I don’t know. Suddenly I wish Christmas would not come at all. I just know that I will never be happy here during Christmas coz it aint Christmas when your family isn’t there to celebrate with you.
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hello chari,
korek ka dyan sis.. ako dont know what to say though i called them during xmas eve in our own loving country but after that iyak p rin ako till yesterday.. di man natin maamin pero sa kaloob looban malungkot. can’t explain. ako aaminin ko, hindi lang during this xmas namiss ko ang pinas but since dumating ako d2. ang akala is just nothing to me kc since independent nga ako since dalagita ako but hindi pla. iba na pala kapag nsa kabilang panig ng mundo ka. ibang iba. i admit, last xmas iyak tlga ako kc imagined ibang family members ng family ko lumuwas from bicol down to manila just to be with all of them lang ha.. tapos ako d2 mag isa.. kunwari lang ako di affected pero pagkbaba ko ng phone iyak tlga ako. ito ung 1st time na umiyak ako ng ganito. magang maga mata ko for 3 days b nman tapos heto new year na.. ang new year ang pinakamasayang holiday sa ken. ewan ko basta gustong gusto ko ang new year. un bang appreciate ko ang another year na bibigay ng Diyos and God give us another year to enjoy our life here on earth..
o sige advance happy new yeare to u. khit gusto ko magluto d2 pero sino nman kakain? ako mag isa? and my hubby? prang weird.. hahahaha just kiddin.
fepsi
pare-pareho tayo ng napi-feel mga kabayan. di big deal dito ang christmas at new year. dinner naman kami together with my husband’s family pero susmaryosep para kaming mga walang bibig, walang nagsasalita… eto ba yung matatawag mong spirit of christmas??? after xmas eve mass nga, narinig ko yung mga xmas songs from radio, naluha ako sa sobrang lungkot, naiimagine ko habang umiiyak ako, yung family ko sa pinas sama-sama at nagnonoche buena na, dito parang normal day lang. saka di man lang sila na-eexcited for xmas and new year, i wont blame them.. ano nga ba naman ang nkakaexciting dito??? sa atin todo, linis ng bahay dekorasyon, listahan ng ihahanda… paramihan pa ng bisita…kahit siguro tumanda na ako dito di ko pa rin mkakalimutan yung memories from my country..minsan nga gusto ko na mag-alsa balutan at umuwi hehehe, wisk ko lang sana ganun kalapit ang pilipinas.. sa atin kahit mahirap kahit walang pera, nkakaraos naman, basta sama-sama at nagmamahalan…
Happy new year sa inyo Feps and Inna!!! lets pray for each other na lang, na makayanan natin tong lungkot na dinadanas natin. take care guys
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