Am I Going to be A Mom Again?

I’ve been real worried these past two weeks, I fear I am pregnant but I really cannot be sure till my monthly period gets delayed. A friend told me to take a day-after pill, another one offered that she’ll adopt my child in case I don’t want the baby. I may be worried about the costs and consequences of having another baby but I have no intention of killing my unborn child whether it’s just blood that’s a day old and no matter how strained our family’s finances will be with an additional child, I will never give any of them away. That’s just not me.

I am a firm believer that children are our blessings, our gifts from God , and I believe too, that God gives us our children, whether they were planned or not, because of the role that they have to play in the future. Things happen for a reason but as of right now, at 36 years old, I am just not yet ready for a second child. My firstborn John is only 25 months old, and is always sick. It makes me guilty to think that if I have another one now, I would be robbing him of the care and attention that otherwise should have been his alone.

I felt a little bit worried about it and times like this nobody can help me now except Him. Only He can change the circumstances , and change the outcome of man’s irresponsible actions, me and my husband’s included. Only He knows what lies beyond my future. So I prayed that if the good Lord wants me to have another baby, then His will be done. But I did pray too, that if He thinks it will be too hard for me, especially with my two-year old getting sick all the time, He should delay it for two more years. I just think that by four years old, little John will be ready to be a big brother.

I am grateful that He did not make me wait too long for His answer. Thankfully, last Friday, I had my monthly period again. It was weird that my period would come that soon but it did, hurray ! God is not God for nothing. What is impossible for me is possible for Him.  I just want to give thanks to the Lord, that yes, I am not yet pregnant !!!

God is good and He is, all the time. He never fails to show His goodness and I am thankful.

Many thanks to Jucjacob for this video.