February 21st, 2007 by Chari
My eldest sister chatted with me for awhile last night and she confided to me that our youngest sister, a registered nurse and 23 years young , has finally fallen in love and has a boyfriend now. My reaction, as expected was : what?!! sino yun ? Matino ba? Anong work nun?? Kelan pa and etc., etc..
I don’t know if I should be happy or sad. But okay , since I’m very honest I’ll say it, I got sad when I learned about that but I know it’s something that’s bound to happen and she can’t be our baby forever . Since her getting married is inevitable (but I hope that would be like maybe five years from now) , here’s what I’ve got to say when that time comes…
” Sigurado ka na ba sa gagawin mo ?”
” Ang pag-aasawa ay hindi parang kaning isusubo ..”
” Ang pag- aasawa ay parang isang masamang panaginip, isang bangungot habang ika’y gising …”
” Para kang kumuhang batong ipupukpok sa ulo mo … ”
” Gusto mo na ding lumagay sa magulo??? … ”
” Goodluck, good health, God bless you …” ( kakailanganin mo yan ,pramiz )
” True na ba talaga yan , di ka mag-sisi ?? ” ( Is that your final answer? )
” Hay naku iha, pag- isipan mo yang maigi … ”
” Akala mo lang paraiso ang pupuntahan mo. Akala mo lang yon, but the truth is .. ito’y isang kalbaryo.. “
I know my lil’ sistah will be laughing when she reads this but really Len, pag- isipan mo yan huh ? I’m just trying to be funny here but honey, you don’t want to know the deep secrets that wives have about their marriages. It’s not all fine and dandy everyday. Men change after we marry them. But if you are really bent on marrying that special guy someday ( maybe five years or more from this date of writing), I tell you, be afraid. Be very afraid, and brace yourself heheheh.. and don’t tell me someday, ” kasi Ate, you did not warn me eh… (hu-hu-hu). ”
Lakas kong manakot noh ? 
February 20th, 2007 by Chari
Not too much in the mood yet to write anything but I have a lot of questions in my mind tonight like…
..why do people have to get married ?
…why does a spouse change after you marry him ?
…how can somebody you love be so irritating sometimes ?
…how can somebody who says he loves you be so uncaring at the same time ?
…why does the wife have to do all the household chores ? Is she his mother and maid rolled into one ???
…how does a wife keeps her cool with all the infuriating things her husband does ?
…how do you keep the music playing ??? este, how do you keep the love alive when you feel you’re just being used ???
…am I the only one who feels this helplessness, frustration, rage ???
So many questions but the answers are too few, goes the song.. Ganito ba talaga ang may asawa? Sana may pumigil sa min nong sinabi naming “we’re getting married” …..
But hay naku, I don’t know. Maybe I am wrong, maybe all marriages are like this. I don’t know really, since this is my first time to be married but who knows the second time will be better ?? hahahahh, I am definitely just kidding but I believe marriage for the first time is a mistake, the second one will be utter stupidity
Hay buhay may-asawa, parang buhok, minsan magulo, minsan ayos na ayos ….
P. S.
Don’t worry, I have no intentions of divorcing my husband, nagtatanong lang po mga ate, kuya …
For all his faults and flaws, after careful consideration, I decided that my husband is one for keeps, kahit nga kung minsan eh talagang kakainis sya to the max …
February 10th, 2007 by Admin
I never knew I’d lose you this soon.
If only I knew, I would have said goodbye to you before I left the Philippines..
If only I knew, I would have said sorry for all the hurtful things I said to you, I was hoping that they would wake you up and make you change. ..
If only I knew I would have hugged you too for all those years that I never did..
If only I knew, I would have said I have forgiven you for all the years you wasted your life searching for that something you never seemed to find, for all the years you should have spent with us, your family..
Why did you leave me so soon?
When I was still a child, you kept leaving us for reasons I didn’t know then but I knew somehow, somewhere I will still see you around but not now. Finally, you are leaving me for good.. Why did you leave me without saying goodbye ?
I thought before I would never cry this much when you’re gone but I am crying so much now. I can’t believe you’re gone, you’re gone too soon Pa. You haven’t even seen my son, John, who is such a happy baby, I just know you’d love him when you see him. I still want to show you America when I am able to get you here. I still want to see you happy and healthy, why did you leave me so soon?
So many questions that will never be answered Pa. But I guess you are happy now, finally you will no longer be alone. My father in heaven will take you in His arms and there’ll be no more pains and heartaches nor loneliness, and I know you long for this moment, to be at peace and happy finally , for forever…
I don’t know if I will ever be able to let go of your leaving me but I know that someday I have to .. but for now, I can’t .. I don’t want to say goodbye Pa. There are still a lot things unsaid, words that I hope I have said to you, when you were still alive and well. I am so sorry if I have hurt you, I am so sorry. I forgive you for everything you’ve done, for all the promises you never kept, for all the times you said you’re sorry and never meant it.
I wish you have forgiven me too. Take only the good memories that we had when you think of me..I will too. I will think of you too, I’ll keep remembering the few good memories that I have of you. They are all I’ve got now…
I really don’t want to say goodbye..
My father passed away last February 4, 2007, at 2:15 P.M in Naga City, Camarines Sur.